How do I know I'm growing up?
I have spent the past 4 years denying that I am aging. Sure I'm only 22 but it's insane that I can know it and yet still feel like an 18 year old girl whenever I can't call the doctors office about my appointment. I had so much anxiety about being a fully grown adult that I just never became one. One by one, I watched all of my friends graduate, get married, move away, and find their dream job while I stayed stuck- no, I am lost. I had planned my entire life by the time I was 11 years old. I was so sure that I was destined to graduate, become a teacher, get married and have 2 babies by 25. I think that's when I knew something wasn't right in my brain. Once I turned 17 I realized that most of that was impossible. My entire life plan was derailed and I had no back up plan. No other idea for what I wanted. So I turned to some unhealthy habits that led me to the person that I am today. I don't regret the things I've done or meeting the people I have ...